Taking a short hiatus

This weekend we were supposed to go to Tennessee for a kayaking trip but we couldn't find a sitter for the girls so we stayed home.

However,  after a fun time there was a massive storm and our friends called it in early and decided to go home yesterday. As they were getting ready to leave and go home they collided with another boat four were injured but we also lost a dear friend. 

He fell overboard and never resurfaced.  We got the news they recovered him at about 2:30 in the morning. 

He was 39.

You never think about how short life is and how fast it can be taken away until it happens to someone you love.

So I need time to be with our friends and my family. 

I ask everyone who's reading this to please pray for our friends wife. She needs it now more than ever.

Think I'm getting sick

oh man I think I'm getting sick. 

I've been so busy and I still have a ton to do.

 I'm switching the girls' rooms and it's a disaster. On top of that I'm reorganizing and moving around the master bedroom and living room. 

I can't be getting sick!

On another note Elizabeth got her first balloon. 

She absolutely loved it.

Making this quick

I have to make this quick I have 4 kids 4 and under over here at the moment. The video I'm  putting up I recorded this morning before all the kids got here and Lily was down for a nap. Elizabeth and I were hanging out bonding over Dr Horrible's Sing Along Blog.

So Tired But Very Happy

Oh man am I tired I could just pass out here at the keyboard. So excuse me while I ramble and go on and on about nothing. I have no real topic in my mind today sorry.

 Elizabeth woke up four time last night after sleeping through the night the passed few weeks, and the dumpster garbage man woke her up again at 5:30 this morning and she was too scared to fall back asleep poor baby. 

I spent all morning doing chores and laundry. I've been such a bad homemaker. I really have been. 

I got new contacts yesterday! Sad news is my vision has gotten worse though. 

I haven't worn contacts since I was pregnant with Lily, so about four years ago.

Four years! My baby's going to be four!

My other baby is going to be one!

Where has the time gone!

I'm actually on here putting off doing the dishes and I really should get off and go do them. Our pastors might stop by this afternoon and one of Bryan's co-workers is coming over for dinner. So I really should get it done.

I have no idea what to cook at all. 

So I'm getting up and going to go find out.

How I feel today

I'm so tired and I really don't feel up to doing anything at all.

I didn't even want to post this picture let alone actually say anything.

I don't even know why anyone would read my blog. Why would you? If you find anything interesting or weird or whatever just let me know I'm very curious.  

I want to say more but I don't really know what to say. Should I just type and let it flow from there? Well, I guess I usually do that anyways lol. 

I have a huge pile of laundry I need to take care of.  I've been so horrible and put it off for a few weeks or so. Yes, I know "shame!" To be 100% honest I really couldn't bring myself to care. Hey! At least I got pretty much all of it washed I only have 3 more loads and then fold it all. The part I loath with a fires of a thousand evils don't like is to put it all away. 

That actually made me scared as soon as I realized that I didn't care. On top of that I had a panic attack in the middle of the grocery store and I can't do that especially when I'm shopping with the girls. So, I made a doctors appointment.

When I was younger I was diagnosed with depression and severe anxiety and was put on meds to help with that. My mom made me not go back to that doctor and made stop taking them though, because she didn't think I had problems even when I knew I needed it and because I was underage at the time I couldn't disobey. When I hit 'adulthood' I just kept putting it off and putting it off until 9 years after my last appointment with her I'm going back.

I loved this doctor. She would actually sit and listen to me. Talk to me. Not just go with my mom said. I'm so happy she accepted me back as a patient.

Now here's a great idea to deal with problems as well as get a little giggle.

daily dose of cutness

Elizabeth was upset so I thought I would distract her and it worked. Along with giving me something insanely cute.

50 Random Facts About Me

I was told by one one my friends, when I told them I have no ideas on what to do on my blog, that I should do the 50 random things about me. So, because I had no other ideas, the girls are down for a nap, and the neighbors are taking a break from moving that I would do it. Though you probably don't care I'm going to do it anyway.

1} Though I went to live with my parents at 9 months old they couldn't adopt me until I was 16 years old.

2} I don't believe in global warming.

3} I'm double jointed.

4} I spoke English, Spanish, and French and was able to use sign language when I was in the 1st grade.

5} I can only speak English and I know only a handful of sign language anymore which makes me sad.

6} I don't have a favorite color.

7} I'm allergic to mustard.

8} I got a horse for Christmas in the 8th grade.

9} I'm addicted to notebooks.

10} I'm a list maker.

11} I don't know how to parallel park and they didn't even test for it in my driving test.

12} I got the highest grade in my child development baby think it over project {where you take a crying doll home and take care of it.}

13} I didn't graduate high school because my home tutor wouldn't turn in my work even though I did it and made copies of them all.

14} I missed half my 10th grade school year because I was too sick and they couldn't figure out what was wrong.

15} When I was in 1st grade everyday in class for half the year one of the boys would punch me in the arm.

16} I love my stretch marks but I hate my extra skin on my belly.

17} I hate the taste of water.

18} I wish I had the O.C.D. that I have to have everything clean.

19} I have to have the volume on the T.V. end in either a 5 or a 0.

20} I have to go a specific way into places and leave in a specific way.

21} I dislocated my pinky finger playing the flute.

22} My first kiss was stolen from me at Six Flags Magic Mountain.

23} I'm half Italian, and part English, Irish, and Native American.

24} Whenever I get a sunburn it only lasts at max 4 days.

25} I love animals more than most people.

26} I'm more afraid of earwigs than spiders.

27} I almost drowned when I was a kid.

28} I have such bad anxiety that I can get a companion animal.

29} I used to be so shy I would not play with other kids at school and just sat by the classroom door reading.

30} I didn't have any good friends until I turned 11.

31} When I was in middle school I would sell candy and made some good money.

32} I have abandonment issues.

33} I can't eat after people. Not even my husband or kids.

34} I love all kinds of music. From classic to some rap. There isn't a genre that I don't have at least one song or piece of music I don't like.

35} I'm 5'2"

36} I was born and raised in Bakersfield, CA and moved to UT in the last of my teen years.

37} Even though I hate it I'm a pack rat.

38} I'm the only child, middle child, and youngest child. {my biological father's only, my biological mother's middle, and my parent's youngest.}

39} I forgive easily.

40} I still have to sleep with my stuffed animal I had to sleep with as a kid.

41} I've played the piano and the flute.

42} I used to do ballet and acrobatics.

43} I never liked girly things until I was 19.

44} The only job I was fired from was because I had the stomach flu.

45} I'm afraid of water I can't see the bottom of.

46} I was accused of being anorexic by my adopted sister because I was 92lbs in high school even though I wasn't and ate every two hours {I was a grazer.}

47} I'm the shortest and the skinniest person in my family.

48} I was a drug baby.

49} I feel the prettiest when I'm pregnant.

50} I've seen several people actually die.